I know this is technically under my “baking” category but this recipe requires no baking at all! If you’ve ever had an energy ball/bite then you know how awesome they are….
Hi friends! How are you? Are you surviving school/exams? What have you been up to? Hope you’re well!
I don’t know about you, but breakfast foods are my all time fav foods. I hate getting up when it’s dark out (aka: early) as much as the next girl but one thing that motivates me to get out of bed is the thought of breakfast. When I’m falling asleep I think “Hmmm, what shall I have for breakfast tomorrow?” If I’ve had a bad day I come home and make waffles or crepes and load them on with chocolate, strawberries and bananas. I live for the typical brunch foods – crepes, croissants, fresh fruit, etc., so it can be hard for me to make the decision to have a healthy breakfast. I won’t do it unless it’s equally as yummy, so I’ve created a few of my own easy breakfast recipes that are bit healthier than those brunch staples….
This is a weirdly personal post and I feel a little strange sharing it with you. Not because I feel insecure about it but mostly because I’m wondering why anyone should care about my secretive problems? I guess that’s part of the problem. I want to share it with you because as I’ve consulted with various friends throughout the day I’ve noticed that almost all of them have been in this situation, know someone who has, or have considered it.
I’m talking about medicating for illness, specifically mental illness. Because it’s such a new concept that mental illness be treated as an illness, the concept of treating it with medication feels a little foreign. I always told myself should I be diagnosed with something serious like bipolar disorder, that I would medicate. Personally, I suffer from a genetic line of anxiety. I always have, for as long as I can remember, had anxiety. It’s what I see as the drawback of being me. I always see things as being complex with good things and bad things and good things that can be bad and bad things that can be good. Anxiety has always been just a sad side effect of me living my life. I’ve seen counsellors in the past but only when it was really quite imperative that I do so. (i.e. I had a bit of a breakdown). After some councilling I felt SO much better. Just working on it made me feel empowered and in control, even if it didn’t make the anxiety go away. I started pushing through things and it felt so amazing to have gone on a trip anxiety free. Unfortunately it seems to have worn off.
In the past 6 months or so my anxiety has been getting progressively worse. My panic attack triggers seem to being going off at the drop of a hat (not literally) but I’ve been either having just normal nervousness or full blown shaking, sweating, throwing up, panic attacks for hours. I want to see a councillor but my options are limited, I’m going to see what I can do about it but in the meantime, after a particularly jarring episode last week, I decided to go see my doctor. I knew all she could do for me was prescribe my a medication that might help with my anxiety and I honestly thought I was okay with it, but here I am prescription in hand, tears in eyes, wondering if I’m making the right decision.
In all actuality, the medication isn’t that bad. It makes you nauseous for about a week (bad for me- nausea gives me panic attacks) and then numbs the side effects of panic attacks so that you can better deal with them rather than be overwhelmed. But! It needs to be taken every day. And if I want to go off of it, I need to be weaned off. These are normal attributes of any kind of medication so why does it make me feel so uncomfortable?
I think part of it is the stigma. I have always rolled my eyes when people talk about the ‘stigma’ of mental illness because among young people there’s really nothing holding you back. I’m very open about my issues and yet I’ve never met anyone who judged my or scoffed at the concept of being mentally ill. It’s so common that it’s a non-issue. I grew up with parents who were relatively understanding about it and have dealt with it in the best ways they know how. I’ve never really seen or felt the stigma around mental illness until now, and it’s in the last place I thought I’d find it. It’s in me. Me, someone who grew up having panic attacks and depressive episodes, doesn’t want to medicate because for some reason it just feels wrong. Even though I’ve been diagnosed and pre robed by a doctor, I don’t feel like I’ve earned the right to take medication, it seems like the easy way out. Since when did ‘the easy way out’ become a drawback in treating an illness? If there’s an easy way out to my anxiety and a good way to treat it, why am I so reluctant? That’s not to say there aren’t drawbacks to it… I, personally, would much rather treat my mental illness through therapy, I think if I was seeing a counsellor I wouldn’t feel the need to be on medication, but unfortunately they’re just really hard to access. The society we live in, I tell ya. I don’t think I should medicate with drugs without doing therapy, so now I’m at a crossroads. Do I medicate while I’m waiting for the opportunity to see a counsellor, or do I wait until I’ve got a counsellor and then decide from there? The latter seems like the way more reasonable option but I feel like I’ve almost blinded myself on the topic.
People always say “you know what’s best for you”, and generally yes, I do. But in this circumstance, I’m wondering if I’m blinded by my anxiety, thinking in a moment of panic that it’s worse than it is. I’m wondering if I’m blinded by my prejudice against daily medications for things that might not be as bad as I think they are. Honestly, I’m wondering if I’m blinding myself from the reality of my situation. I don’t know how bad my anxiety is, I’m a terrible judge of my own emotional and mental standing. So now what? Honestly, I don’t know.
I hope this wasn’t just one long post about me complaining about my non-problems. I hope maybe some of you can relate to what I’ve said! I always feel like other people have such a better perception of themselves than I have of myself. They always seem to know what’s right for them, and I don’t know what’s right for me even on this extremely personal decision. Strange. Let me know if you want to hear more about this/my anxiety history/what I end up doing/etc. I know a lot of people find comfort in hearing others’ stories about anxiety, it’s comforting to know you’re not the only one!
With that, I hope you’re doing well, and if you have any advice, feel free to share. 🙂
Aloha friends! If you’ve been following me for awhile you’ll already know how much I love Lucas Pawpaw Ointment. I use it every day whether I’m wearing makeup or not, no matter what, it fits into my daily routine. Not only that, but I bring it with me almost everywhere I go because it’s just SO DARN USEFUL. Let’s get started.
What it is: I use it as a lip care product. I use it if my lips are dry as a moisturizer and I use it as a base under all my lip products to make sure they don’t try out my lips and so that they have a nice finish to them. It also looks nice without any other products on top, so some days when I’m going for a more natural look I’ll just use this – it just gives a nice, glossy, fresh look. 🙂
This is what it looks like:
Its ingredients: Fresh fermented carica papaya, and 0.1mg of potassium sorbate as a preservative. Very natural stuff.
This picture (as you can see) was taken on one of my hikes when we stopped for a little rest. I bring this on every single one of my hikes because as well as being a great lip care product, Lucas Pawpaw Ointment is also great for any kind of nature-related emergency.
Its other uses: On the back of the bottle it’s described as “a local topical application for boils, burns, chafing, cuts, cracked skin, gravel rash, splinters, open wounds, insect bites, and nappy rash.” Clearly, it’s the kind of stuff you want with you on any kind of camping trip. Obviously it won’t be able to single handedly cure all these things but it will be able to help a little until you get the help you need, so I always bring it. Also because the darn black flies love to eat me 🙁
What I love about it: It actually works really well. I got it from a friend for my birthday after we bonded over our love for Alexa Chung, and in her book it she references this and how she uses it for chapped lips, and I have chapped lips! Quite a thoughtful gift actually. This was two birthdays ago now, and I’m still on my first bottle, and it still has the same smell/consistency and works just as well as it always has so I’m assuming it hasn’t gone bad yet. It has a good lasting power as well, I only put it on once, maybe twice a day and my lips are usually left quite refreshed and soft (as long as I’ve been exfoliating as well, it’s not really magical after all).
If you like the whole hiking thing, I did a vlog for this hike and it was really beautiful so if you would like to check that out just click here.
If you would like to try it out, obviously it comes highly recommended from myself, and you can buy it on Amazon. 🙂 Let me know if you have a holy grail lip product! I have such horribly dry lips that I’m still always on the lookout for new stuff.
Hope you enjoyed!
Hi friends! This is the most personal post I’ve written on my blog I think, hahahaha. With #BellLetsTalk going on last week, and having been inspired by my friends and some fellow bloggers, I thought I would write about something some of you might find helpful. For me, insomnia is closely related to my mental health and really kicks in when I’m in a period of anxiety. Those of you who also have social or generalised anxiety, and/or panic disorder probably know that a panic attack doesn’t end there. Whenever I have a panic attack it lasts for awhile. Just one small smidgen of me dealing with my anxiety is dealing with my insomnia. In fact, my insomnia became so much a part of my anxiety that I started getting anxiety about not being able to fall asleep… which of course made it harder. But I’m not here to talk about my anxiety today….
Hi guys! Unfortunately for me it’s that time of the year where flu season really kicks in. 🙁 For the past couple of weeks I’ve been feeling a bit off, but it wasn’t until this weekend (conveniently when I decided to film my first vlog) that they really took off. I wanted to share with you some of my go-to at home remedies to help out those of you who may have also caught a cold! …
Hi guys! As a part of my New Years Resolution I thought I would start a new segment on my blog called “What I Ate Today.” This is for those of you out there who, like me, want to get healthier this year. I’m not really counting my progress in lbs or looks but more in how my new diet and exercise helps my feel! This isn’t strictly about food, it’s just all the things I’ve eaten and what I’ve done to get exercise today! I’m hoping that as I write it, I’ll be motivated to be more active and eat less junk!
To start off I’ll give you some background, (if you don’t really care just skip this paragraph) my physical appearance is not reflective of my physical and mental health. I look a lot better than I really am and that’s misleading for me and many other people. It also makes me less motivated to change because I already look okay, but I don’t really feel okay. I’m a vegetarian so often I lack in iron and protein if I’m not taking care of my diet. Recently I’ve found out I’m lactose intolerant as well, and I’ve heard of the benefits cutting out dairy has so I’m trying to jump on that bandwagon. What really motivated this movement in my lifestyle is I feel like CRAP. I’m always outrageously sleepy, always having headaches, always lacking energy. It makes it really hard to live a full life when you feel like that all the time so I thought I better try and figure out how to fix it!
8:00 am – Breakfast, a piece of toast with jam on it, and a cup of hot black tea. (Realising the toast might have also had butter on it – my sister made it- as my tummy is now starting to hurt)
8:40 am – Just remembered that drinking water is a thing I’m supposed to do, starting my first bottle of water for the day!
1:00 pm – Lunch. I’ve been in class all morning and I’m pretty hungry. One of the big tips for dieting is not to eat unless you’re actually hungry, which I do waaaay too often. When I got home I had leftover potatoes that I made last night, and a small smoothie bowl for a little dessert! Smoothie bowls are my favourite, this one had apple sauce, frozen mixed berries, a tbsp of peanut butter and some water just so it mixes a bit better. I topped it with some almonds, ground flax and chocolate chips. YUM 😋It was kind of hard to make because we don’t have too many veggies in the house, for a really healthy smoothie bowl you’re looking at 70% veggies, 30% fruit! Also a bit hard to substitute dairy, usually I just use lactose free milk but we’ve run out of that as well Hahah.
3:03 pm – Snack. I have another class in an hour and I’m feeling pretty sleepy, time for another cup of tea. (I stick to tea instead of coffee because it has less caffeine and ya girl’s got anxiety problems. Espresso coffee- the only kind in my house- is a no-go for me).
5:38 pm – Dinner. I got home from my class around 5:15 and I was super hungry so I ate a cookie (no regrets, white macadamia nut if you’re wondering), and a protein bar that I forgot to bring to my morning class. I’m having a stir fry, just veggies – celery, bell pepper, broccoli, cauliflower, and plain white rice. YUM. Thanks mom.
I’m going for a walk after dinner just to unwind from my day, then I’ve got a blog post to write and a lot of reading for school to do so I’m going to end my post here! Here’s a heads up – I get really snacky at night, so this probably won’t be entirely everything I eat today but I’m going to really try not to eat unless I’m actually hungry! Also, a super lowkey day in terms of exercise, but it’s my first week back at school, and I get SAD in the winter time so I’m just taking it easy! Hopefully that’ll pick up some more in the weeks to come.
Thanks for reading, this is a beta run, so let me know if you have any tips/what you think in the comments below! If you like it I’ll continue, and try to post one of these once a week, hopefully with some pictures to go along with it, so keep your eyes open for more!